What if you were normal?
What if you were brought up like all the other girls?
You wouldn’t be who you are today. You wouldn’t be The Detective.
But maybe you’d have a room like hers.
A girly room.
Pink comforter. White wooden bed. Four bedposts. Big pillows.
Lots of pillows.
Would you want such a room?
Maybe you’ll never know.
You did, once. You didn’t know what would be involved. You had few friends,
and you never saw many other girls’ rooms at anyways, so didn’t know what you wanted.
You wanted your room painted pink.
He wouldn’t let you.
That decision, at least, may have been for the best. Who would ever want a hot-pink room?
But maybe you would have liked a room like this one. Maybe something at least a little girly.
On second thought, maybe not this girly. Even the dresser is white with pink accents.
At least there’s a consistent color scheme.
It doesn’t matter now.
He didn’t want you to be who you are, so you became The Detective, and
now you don’t have to think about him anymore.
You do anyway. You miss him.
What did he want you to be?
Doesn’t matter.
You aren’t.
You decide you like the dresser, and will get yourself one like it.
Important matters resolved, you return to your detective work.
Sigh.
What a waste of time. You should go.
The boy’s killer never stepped in this room. None of the boy’s killers.
Neither did the boy, or if he did, it wasn’t for long.
“He never liked the room.” It’s the girl.
“I know.”
The policeman next to you asks how you could possibly know this.
He hypothesizes that perhaps the boy was allergic to pink. Would most boys really
mind so much? You don’t know.
You think the policeman would look better with a heavy mustache.
“No,” you say, but do not elaborate.
He knows he won’t get anything more from you. He turns to the girl.
“He kept staring at the pillows.”
Of course he did.
Unlike the boy, you don’t get caught staring.